Saturday, April 27, 2013

Bellingham


You can tell a lot about a city from the myriad slices of life found in their pictures. Those icons and memories perfectly preserved in digital amber for the tapping of keys and clicking of mice to unlock. Bellingham is no exception.

You see his local businesses discretely advertising to a niche audience; the landmarks and parks made popular by word of mouth and essential experiences. You get to see the voices and poetry of the personalities that inhabit him. All those defined characteristics that make a list of the essential visual and lived experience peppered across this city’s landscape, crystallized and collected through the thousand perspectives of everyone passing through.

Bellingham wears the faces of profile pictures some familiar, some unknown, and with bodies of news articles and skies (always the skies). His limbs are landscapes gently jagged in their rolling hills and curved around bays and mountains. Houses and sidewalks sprinkled with the idiosyncrasies and windfall of life bloom across the city’s curves like circus personalities with microbrews.

His seasons and sunsets, evident in exclamations of disbelief and outrage beside sighs of joy paint a picture of the various neighborhoods circling the city’s heart. With subdued excitement there’s life in these streets. Ghosts of a gridline overlayed in concrete, lined with homes, once tall, now a specter of forgotten memories, these streets pulsate with the warmth of a star eight minutes in the past. It’s not just the life on the streets, it’s the life in them, the sovereignty of silence and the cold, hard life of stones.

Snapshots of first meetings and last farewells, the starting of many an epic journey, all captured perfectly in the flow of his parade with an unintentional honesty, bookend the stories of his existence. His alleyways and neon profile capture the heady, lingering scent of old piss, stale beer and cheap green before the ever-present threat of sudden rainfall washes it away again.

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Phone Tag Redux


I want to be someone you want to talk to,
someone you sit staring
with the chat window open for an hour,
wishing I would initiate conversation
so you didn’t have to,
typing three different messages on the theme:
“I want to talk to you so bad right now”
before deleting them to start all over again
because the first one sounded just a little too desperate
and the second just a little too abrupt,
but still not sending the third draft
for fear I might take you seriously.
I want you to know what it must have felt like in the 90s
when you waited by the phone for hours
hoping it would ring,
practicing how to say hello
and make it sound nonchalant and cool and breathless
like you had to run all the way from across the house,
but still sound surprised
because no-you-weren’t-waiting-by-the-phone-why-am-I-calling?

I want that Pavlovian response
every time you see that green notification by my name
as you hover with indecision,
torn between clicking open the status bar
and deleting me from your friends
just so you aren’t racked with temptation
every time you see I’m online.

But I guess it’s worked the other way around,
unless you’re playing this game too
and maybe, just maybe, I should make your day.

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Sunday has become a day of bread


Increasingly, I find myself accountable to yeast.
I'm kneaded and folded by hands too tired to rest on the keyboard.
Honey oat and vegan avocado call to me with a voice that sounds like home,
but that was never my home.
The wafts of freshly baked embraces are a cultural memory
implanted by the white picket fences I've yet to see in person.
So I substitute,
I darn over the holes of missing traditions with
weekly practice in homely creation.
It's a glutenous trap of the homemade variety.

Thursday, January 31, 2013

The Prostate Poems

I.
Oh spot of pleasure
hidden from view between
twin buns of steel.
Teach men your secrets

II.

Two rings stand sentry
before the passageway of the Prince
relaxing only to grant entrance
to the ambassador of a foreign body

III.

The sweet plum unattainable
convulses beneath prying fingers
and expels its seed from
the base of a newly grown stalk
as if to say
please swallow this again

IV.

internal walnut
only light stroking pressure
clipped fingernails please

V.

Greek protector of Exocrine origin
your contractions invoke Dionysian fits
drink now of the alkaline secretions therein

VI.

never a massage did produce
fluids so copious
or pleasure so shaking
as this assault on my prostate
even memories arouse erections

VII.

This pulsing thief of reason
entranced by the crown jewels
forgets what he is carrying
and drops a bag of pearls

Saturday, January 5, 2013

Pavement


It starts with a heartbeat.
Tha-thump tha-thump tha-thump
This is the pounding you're used to.
It's mutual need fueled by
hot and quivering thighs
in sync with pumping arms.
Breath,
torn in gasps by the little death of achievement,
rants ragged in protest.
You will never finish this marathon life
without sparking fire-fomenting rebellion
inside every mitochondrial membrane.
That heartbeat? It gets frenetic
Tha-thumptha-thumptha-thumptha-thump
amped up on adrenaline and cortisol.
gotta go, gotta finish, gotta win, gotta love
mariposa stomachs doing backflips and barrel rolls
while the mind surges upward into an abyss.
Evolution is an arms race.
Combine and separate;
adapt to every shitty hand life throws your way
and overcome.
This, this was never a prurient goal,
so wipe the sweat from your brow.
Feel the heat of the afterglow,
the  flush of accomplishment.
Sit up straight.
Relax your jaw.
Wash yourself of the salted remnants
of an hour well spent
Tha-thump tha-thump tha-thump
It ends with a heartbeat

The above piece was my submission to Labyrinth, the feminist and literary arts journal of Western Washington University.

Monday, November 5, 2012

Postcard Poems: Six


I hope you never hear this
because I wouldn't want to see you blush
red like the six seeds swallowed
to give Hades a Queen.
Six seeds for six months
because six months separated is long enough
to abide Hermes' escort from this mortal coil.
But
we all have an Orpheus
willing to follow us into the dark
to plead their case past three trials
and carry us back into the light.
Even if they look back, don't fade away
unless the sadness and the silence
should rival the burning hate of Styx
in ways even Lethe cannot wash away.
For Odysseus does Penelope wait
greater times than half circles round Helios' hall,
hiding daily devotion in nightly tricks.
Sometimes even the brightest lights
cast the darkest shadows.
And I would carry you away like Ganymede
if you wanted to be closer to the sun.

Bonus pic! Because Ethan requested a hand-painted postcard I took a picture of myself in process.

Friday, September 28, 2012